Last weekend I was dispatched to a residence to transfer a hispanic woman who was actively dying to hospice. Upon arrival all of the family was present. Their was something floating in the air other than the amazing Mexican food they were cooking for dinner. Their was a ocean of sadness. It wasnt the typical scene of a woman actively dying.
They were all very quiet. Very solemn. The 2nd eldest son arrived shortly before us loading their mother onto the stretcher. He requested if time permitted a family prayer be done before we take her to hospice. My partner and I agreed to it. At this point this massive family gathered into the room and join hands and bowed their heads. We were not asked to leave or stay so to not cause a stir me and my partner bowed our heads in silence. The entire prayer was 2 minutes long and entirely in spanish. Through out the prayer the room remained silent. Not a cough, throat clearing, or sniffle. After the prayer was complete we loaded her onto the stretcher and into the ambulance. The 2nd eldest son asked if he may ride; my partner and I had him sign the 3rd rider release and were on our way.
I asked him how he was doing. And he just told me hes hanging in their. We continued to talk back and fourth. I learned from him his mother was diagnosed with stage IV pancreatic cancer only 6 weeks ago. The doctors determined it was too late to treat it as it spread throughout the body.And as I continued the short transfer I had this huge urge to cry. But being professional I was barely able to hold it back.
Once we arrived to Hospice and transferred care I went into the room where the family was waiting to see her. I gave a hug to each and everyone of their family members and wished them best of luck. Including the son who rode with me.
I have never gone so far as to offer a hug to family members. I usually tell them best of luck and head on my way and maybe shake their hand and offer kind words and condolences. But for some reason this run really hit me emotionally.
Why did this one hit me and not others?