That's a difficult situation to survive, without ending up ducttaped to your own cot, Even Techs with years of experience suffer what I like to call basketcase syndrome...I know I did...Buckle down, study, practice, study,practice....
Or slip back for a bit, take a year or two with a local squad, and get the field experience. It quite possibly could change your entire outlook on the field...I wish ya the best....and congrats on passing...I hope you make it through....
If I can help you in any way, let me know...
