EasterSealer

Hi. I've "been" an EMT since 2009, but I've never been able to freaking work as one. Locally, it seems like such a good 'ol boy's club. I was the only one of six in the paramedic class (which I took immediately after receiving/passing EMT Basic) that did not work at AMR. I passed everything in the interview, but was sent a card saying thanks, but no thanks. Then, nearly concurrently, my ACLS was supposed to be announced, but was not during the paramedic part of the class. Then I was told I hadn't shown, even though I was never late for class, nor had I missed -any- time. Evidently, it was brought up at AMR since the instructor is a lead medic, and everybody again, but me, works there. So I missed ACLS, and thus booted from the program. Very frustrated at that point, so I did other things. Now it's 2013, and my paramedic classes were enough continuing ed hours to keep my cert for Basic til the next time. All the sudden, I get a call from the NEW paramedic chair at the college! He was told what had happened with me and how I'd been alienated in the program. After reviewing my grades (98.3%), he said he wanted me back in and could start where I left off...WOW! But here's my problem. That's intimidating since I -did- get a passing grade for Med I, even though I shouldn't have (since ACLS was part of the class). The former chair was such a screw-up that he'd given me a 'C' since I had an 'A' until the last week of the class. Now I face going back into the program with only 3 classes left, which is very gracious of the new Chair. I don't want to retake classes and I feel as skilled as paramedic is (schooling) that my "skills" are quite perishable. Anyway, he quizzed me on the phone and I had recalled quite a bit, but my algorhythms for codes/PEA, etc were like swiss cheese. He's confident I'd "fit right in". I feel it's a political fallout waiting to happen when I do clinicals and my former classmates saw me as a quitter, despite my getting screwed over...secondly, I really respect EMS in general, and since so much time's passed, I'm intimidated because I don't see myself as legitimate. Very frustrated! Classes resume, ironically, where I left off for this March 18th. I have his full consent to come back balls to the wall. What would you do? Redo the entire courses? Jump in and hope for the best? One of my future instructors is friends with the prior Chair and made it quite clear he feels I'm a failure. Confused...