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If I may be so bold: I think I know who you are because I was much like you in 1997. I was.. let's just say I was rebellious and I did some stuff and saw some things prior to 1997. I was looking just as you are searching for meaning and importance in my life. Did I find it in becoming an EMT? No. FF1? No. Big city FD? No. EMT-I? No. Big City EMS? No. Paramedic? No. What I have come to realize in the most basic terms is this: 1. It is necessary for me to work to make money to exchange for what I need to live. 2. I can function in highly stimulated scenarios and it actually helps my focus.. the more f'ed up the situation the better I function. 3. Every other job I've tried has been fundamentally too corrupt for me to ignore. 4. Healthcare is only as corrupt as I decide to make it. I'm not sure if that will make sense to you because it's written in a language that perhaps is only comprehensible after you've seen some things that make you feel like you just took a trip to a house of mirrors and nothing's funny anymore.. Anyway, that's my two cents. You must be a good person because you came up with this crazy idea to help others because it makes you smile. The rest of the lesson is unfortunately too early for you. It wouldn't make any sense. Know this though: You can be a GREAT FIRE FIGHTER or you can be a GREAT PARAMEDIC... but you will NEVER be both.. no one has and no one ever will. Choose one path or another or be squished like a grape.