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After I sat and read what everyone has said about this topic, I have to say that I agree with most of what was said to a certain extent. I'm not sure if EMS has changed me,... but then again I have never known anything different. I grew up in a family that was always involved in EMS. My grandparents and my parents have been involved in EMS since I was a small child. I think in alot of ways this has helped me learn what not to do as well as what to do. I learned that if you don't talk about a bad call it WILL eat you up and affect everyone around you. I learned that there are those that you can save and those that you can't and you will feel equally good and bad at the same time. I have learned that if you don't share what you have learned than you are only being selfish and that we all have something to learn. I have learned some of my most beneficial things from the brand new EMT, I learned what it was like to be excited about the job again, and I have learned equally from the "ol Timers", that no matter what we do it is not always in our hands. There is always a higher power. On the negative side of things, I have come to be educated about the "personal advancement above all" theory. THere are those people in EMS who only do the job for their own ego, they will eventually rain on your parade and make you feel like you aren't doing what you should, and that you personally are in their way. I have also learned that there is a incredible amount of back stabbing and sabotage among EMS providers, we seem to "play" well together but then turn around and plan on getting screwed. Overall, EMS is my first love and what I will continue to do for a long time to come, and as I become an instructor I hope to pass on the more important messages and prepare the newbies for what is going to thrown their way. Good Luck and Be Safe out there.