It's 4 a.m. and I still can't sleep. I feel really bad inside, and given the stuff I've gone through, that is no easy feat. I feel bad because as any regular knows, I was out of communication for a while.... like over a year or so. The truth is I simply had a ton of stuff to deal with in my personal life and I had to push everything else to the side for a bit. I don't regret putting those things ahead of EMS, but I do regret so much not getting to talk to Rob again. After I started posting here