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Curiosity

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  1. What I remember most about my first peds call is how I walked over, walked around, knelt next to, ran a full code on this child, and it wasn't until we were walking out of the house with him did I notice his nationality. That made me think back to every code I could remember and I realized I can't recall any of their faces. I'll tell you what I'll never forget. The screams his parents let out when they were notified he wasn't coming back. I don't have time to think about being sad while on a code, im so busy, like I said, I barely even look at their faces other than a quick look for trauma, intubated and pupils. I don't look for the sake of remembering. Am I cold and heartless? Maybe to some people. But I guess I've developed my way of dealing with this, and I can say death does not bother me in the least. What does bother me is the families. I can probably recall every time I've had to give families a death notice. I remember their faces, the screams, the anger. I've sat with them through the shock (probably longer than I had to in most cases) I've held their hand, and I remember every one of their faces. That is the hardest part for me. I can usually control my emotions afterwards, until the one time my parter told me it was ok to cry, where I busted into tears and cried like a baby. But WOW did it ever feel good! It's not the dead I cry for, their suffering is over. It's the living who have to keep on living with this hole in their lives that I greave for.
  2. Hi, I'm new to these forums but i love these discussions you all have! I have had similar situations. We are called to pick up a patient for his dialysis, he refused to go, we couldn't do anything about it. Two days later we return, patient still refuses to leave. We explain the worse case scenario if he doesn't go and he states he doesn't care. Patients family was there begging and crying for him to go, still didn't work. Next day, patients mental state deteriorates, so we were able to take him then. Unless they have an order from a dr. or the courts forming them under the mental health act, our hands are tied... No matter how much the nurses at the nursing homes scream at us...
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