Yeah, the mindset I have is not a typical alpha-type that's found in this area's EMS systems. I'm fairly meek and non-aggressive. Once I master something, I'm very comfortable (like calculus!)...but since you'd mentioned that about building confidence and all **My problem is that I want to see and work and take it all in. This area has skills taught -first-, but you don't do clinicals or just observe. I don't work for AMR or anything locally, because I'm a single dad of a special needs. I don't have the time to work/school/parent. I can get babysitters for short term, but for working and school, which is 12+ hours for my classmates, that's not quite possible. Is there a place to pick up/acclimate myself with use of protocols and procedures somewhere? Some of the Youtube videos do not seem correct against Indiana's skills sheets.