I haven't had too many patients die on me, I did however had a 3 month old die on Christmas Eve morning 3 years ago from SIDS, it was an Inter-facility emergency transport with Children's hospital of Pittsburgh critical care transport team.
This was a terrible way to end a 12 hour shift, I admit I did get a bit teary eyed for a few minutes, but mostly because it was a day before Christmas and the fact the child died at home and the mother was at work at that time had no idea what happened.
I have cried over family death my step-mom and grandfather were ones I did not take well, especially my step mom who was 30 when she died of diabetic complications, I just spoke to her 3 hours prior to my dad finding her dead in there bed, she said she didn't felt good, but she had dialysis that day so that was nothing new for her to feel like that.
I have had a handful die after we transfer them to hospital bed, I feel sad, but never down, just clean truck up change the linen on the cot and continue to next call......nothing more you can do....it happens...