Wow, thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you and the patient's family. I can understand how you feel though. Unlike you I live and work in a rural area...a community where we are all "family", so I have had my share of rough calls. But the most difficult was this last spring. We were called out to a 1 vehicle rollover with 2 known patients. On the way there, I went over in my head the MOI and that we would need air support. On scene I saw the pickup on its top and my daughter's friend from school impaled on a metal fence post. I rarely am shaken-up, but this cene made even me "the ice queen" gasp. He was still alive screaming and the firemen onscene trying to clam him. He knew he was in big trouble! To make a long very painful story short, still to this day everytime I close my eyes I still see his pleading face in my dreams. As for the question at hand, "why do we do this..." well, despite all of the bad calls and tough working conditions, I feel that we were put here on this earth to help people in the worst time of their lives. In my heart that is what helps me through each shift, each call... take care of yourself and remember you are not alone in this.
Wow, thank you for sharing. My heart goes out to you and the patient's family. I can understand how you feel though. Unlike you I live and work in a rural area...a community where we are all "family", so I have had my share of rough calls. But the most difficult was this last spring. We were called out to a 1 vehicle rollover with 2 known patients. On the way there, I went over in my head the MOI and that we would need air support. On scene I saw the pickup on its top and my daughter's friend from school impaled on a metal fence post. I rarely am shaken-up, but this cene made even me "the ice queen" gasp. He was still alive screaming and the firemen onscene trying to clam him. He knew he was in big trouble! To make a long very painful story short, still to this day everytime I close my eyes I still see his pleading face in my dreams. As for the question at hand, "why do we do this..." well, despite all of the bad calls and tough working conditions, I feel that we were put here on this earth to help people in the worst time of their lives. In my heart that is what helps me through each shift, each call... take care of yourself and remember you are not alone in this.